Only ONE

when all else fails where do we go? where shall we go? who shall we trust ? who shall love us? who should we follow? and there is only one answer to all of these question and to the biggest of questions for me in hard times who really cares for you and will never leave you? .........

God, prince of peace, Lord of lords, I am, Savior, Friend, Father, Everlasting Father, Morning Star, Mighty God, Refuge,Rock!!!!!!!!!

when all is falling apart

when all is falling apart, my family sees a smile, when all is falling apart my friends hear me laugh, when all is falling about the one who broke my heart sees my Strong and a full heart. but the one who is above, sees whats really underneath the smile the laugh the full heart!
He sees my brokenness and sends HEALING for the pain. he sees the fake smile and sends REAL LOVE he hears my laugh and knows it is broken so he claims the tears and shows me LIFE.

So to my family I am done smiling when inside I am dying!
To my friends a laugh might not be near!
And to the one who has hurt me, my strong and full heart are out of reach

People hurt you then try to explain as if you explain helps them to realize your FAKE love is still there, and to the people who get hurt fight back! well I am tired of fighting the world and the one I LOVE , so i come before in humility , truly sorry, upset and confused, but I AM SORRY, I LOVE YOU ! and that will never change

missing you like crazy

I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY ! I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT YOU ! WELL THEN AGAIN I AM ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT YOU EVEN IF WE TALK EVERYDAY! BUT IN THIS WEEK SEEMS TO BE GOING VERY SLOWLY AND I MISS YOU SO MUCH ! COME BACK :( , YA I KNOW ITS NOT YOUR FAULT! BUT I REALLY MISS YOU!

God is Amazing !

When I look into the mountains I see Your face When I look into the night sky it sparkles Your Name The wind in the clouds and the blue in the sky The sun and the moon and the stars so high That's what draws me to You Chorus:I am I'm captivated by You(You know that You do)I am I'm captivated When I wake unto the morning it gives me your sights When I look across the ocean it echoes Your might The sand on the shore and the waves in the sea The air in my lungs and the way You made me That's what draws me to You Chorus x2 The wind in the clouds and the blue in the sky The sun and the moon and the stars so high The sand on the shore and the waves in the sea The air in my lungs and the way You made me The blood in my veins and my heart You invade The plants how they grow and the trees and the shade The way that I feel and the Love in my soul thank you my God for letting me know Chorus x2

My Love for One !

Everyone tells you not to love when your young! Why ? Well I'm not sure why maybe because kids do stupid things if they get their heart broken but if it was true love you would forgive them of their wrong and not do something stupid cause you know it would hurt them! When your in love you do everything possible to never hurt them and yet at times we do fail! And that is were forgiveness comes in and is an important part of a relationship, that and trust! I love this boy who will be moving away soon and we have faced many trials, one is of trust when he leaves can we trust each other to be faithful? My answer is forever and always my faithfulness will be ! I know he is a very honest and loving boy and I trust Him to be faithful forever and always also well. As in 1 Corinthians 13: 4- 8 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails. So to Caleb Kingma you shall be forever in my heart and forever loved! I will live by 1 Corinthians and be patient, kind, not envy,not boast,not proud,not rude,not self-seeking, not easily angered, I will not keep record of wrongs,will not delight in evil, and i will rejoice with the truth, i will protect,always trust,always hope and always perseveres.

~ Darling of My Life ~

Broken Heart !

As each day passes I dread the end of Aug. for most they think at the end of Aug. school is in life starts craziness again but at the end of Aug is when I lose my best friend. They are moving away and life will be hard for them and for me. Sadness come upon my face just thinking about that day that will come. There's nothing I can do to stop that day. The day my heart will be broken for yet another time. The day I lose the one I love. I can only hope that my friend will never forget me because I will never forget my friend. I'm not sure how life is going to be. At times I don't have the strength to play basketball or do school cause the depressing thought of I'll never see my friend again. I wonder If next year I can keep my school grades high as it is I cry. Never stop thinking about how I wish I could freeze time. When day last comes I'm sure gonna wish I had one more laugh, and yet I will have to cry as I say Goodbye for the very last time.

~ Darling of My Life ~

Another Day

Everyday we wake up our days seem to be filled with craziness whatever age group you maybe in from adults and dealing with work and overall stress of life, for some adults raising a family and being strong for your husband or wife. Others might be teenagers who have school and the stress of keeping your grades high, for some also the commitment to sports and pain of training on your body. To even the young kids who just want to have fun life seems to run in a million different directions and never seems to end. Because even when you die the next generations is still running and it will continue to the end of time! But what is the purpose of life? For me to get the best education, with that education get a well paying job, get married have a family ..... and then what.... ? What comes next ? depression like the celebrates who have everything and now they are bored with their life? Why do we think a good education, nice job, rich, and a perfect family is the life ? who ever put that thought into our minds? Our life here isn't about making money having the best education , getting the perfect job, being married, kids ...etc. Of course those things are nice but that is not our life! Our life is and should be all about God! If you live in America our country's foundation was based on God. Yet over the years sin and pride as over taken our country. Our forefathers were strong Christian's who knew sin and pride would take over our country so they tried to base this country on God. But today it is failing and America is no longer a Christian country like we should be! Our purpose in life is to live for God and glorify him always! I can tell you now America will fall to its knees before turning back to God!